Hiatus

I stand in hiatus; Suspended between what was and what never will be. There are a million things to fix my gaze upon in this world, Yet only your presence and now, even your absence fills my vision. I watch you. I watch you writhe in pain. Your eyes are tightly closed. If only I could reach across and pry them open, So you’d see me, just once more. So our eyes would meet again, And I’d find that shimmering light that tells me this too shall pass. You’re near, yet unreachable. A breath away, Yet drifting like a distant galaxy. This helplessness aches. Not being the one to carry your weight. Not lifting it like it were my own cross to bear. You would’ve done the same for me I know that much. I tell you how much I care about you. And when proof is needed, I seem to disappear? But I didn’t vanish. I’m here, Watching powerless. Watching someone else carry what I would’ve bled to bear for you. That’s your person. Everyone has theirs. It feels like I’m fighting for a space in your life that I’ll never truly have. Maybe I will, but only for a moment. I feel like a third wheel When all of this is over, Please… let me walk away from you. Mine will find me.